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Correlation of life and death
September 2008 by Latrina

I have been thinking a lot about death lately — not in a dreaded or depressing way, more of an understanding. Death to me is not the end but the beginning of a heighten perspective of life. I’m here on Earth to experience both the good and bad, to learn from them both, to share, to celebrate, to love, to strive to be better. To GROW. If I continue on this journey learning as much as I possibly can I think I have lived a prosperous life. After death, this is when we recollect, compile, and digest our knowledge we have acquired through out our life. In that moment, we will reach the highest awareness of the word LIFE and all it’s meaning. All our questions will no longer need answers - we will know everything. It excites me and I even look forward to that moment. Don’t get me wrong, I intend to live a full, healthy, and brilliant life. I’m no longer afraid of death because I know there is much better things awaiting me. Lost faces I will see again. New places to go. Another life to triumph.

I am a huge fan of clouds, any one who knows me would know that. Today, while Chris and I were out eating lunch, huge puffy clouds scattered the sky, so many of them — was breathtaking. I, unfortunately, did not have my camera with me (I need to remember to carry that thing with me where ever I go!). I started thinking about life & death and how I hope the day I die (hopefully many years from now) the clouds will look a little something like this — to remind those I love that life is still beautiful even in the midst of chaos and death.

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Unproductive days, what a waste.
September 2008 by Latrina

I had intentions to spend the evening doing something artsy. I’ve been working on a new layout for my blog this past week and even though I’m really digging it, a part of me is already tired of it. This is the exact reason I’m not a web designer any more. I get about 75% completed and then want to quit. The headaches aren’t worth it. I’d rather be drawing or painting.

I have so many thoughts and ideas running around in my head. Projects and layouts! Paintings and drawings. Even though I feel artistic, something inside me just isn’t wanting to do the work. I don’t think it’s laziness, hell, I don’t know what is it but I wish it would leave me alone. I don’t normally get a lot of time to myself and when I do, I like to spend it productively. Today was a perfect day to do something artistic. I tried and tried but kept getting headaches. *sigh* Today just isn’t my day, my body and mind is sluggish. Maybe tomorrow! We’ll see. But for now, I’m making a list of goals in writing. To keep me on track. Let’s see how many I can mark off within the next month. Wish me luck. :)

  1. » Finish a damn layout.
  2. » Start the projects I’ve had in mind for months now.
  3. » Sell the layouts from may studios. Any takers? :P
  4. » Complete a painting and start my etsy shop.
  5. » Get a bank account for my etsy shop.
  6. » Start writing more. Blog, journal, stories, etc.
  7. » BE PRODUCTIVE!
  8. » Get Chris to blog his amazing writings.