Time has been flying by so awfully fast — I’m having trouble keeping up. So much has happened since I have last posted. For starters, Chris and I have our own place. Finally. It’s an one bedroom apartment and it’s beautiful. :) It’s starting to feel like a home now. It’s nice having everything yours. And the privacy is such a plus.
Even though I have so much to celebrate I can’t help but feel down. The reason.. I’m not too sure. It’s like a curse that I can’t get rid of. It’s swarms me whenever something good happens. It’s worse on holidays. It’s like it refuses to let me be happy. It’s such a bitch.
I have tried all types of ‘therapy’ but nothing seems to help. The breathing technique only makes me more tensed for some weird reason. There is one thing that works, I don’t know why I tend to forget about it.. music. It’s has always been my therapy — my remedy for all that haunts me. It has never let me down.
I was thinking today. It’s so remarkable, music that is. How one song can mean something different depending on when/how you listen to it. The meaning behind it some how morphs itself to fit what you’re feeling. It’s a sneaky chameleon, if you ask me. I love it. Today, I feel like Storm by Lifehouse. It’s in my music player if you want to give it a listen. It’s one of my favorite songs. So beautiful.
All this talk about life and music and what not has really been inspired by the book I am recently reading: The Perks of Being a Wallflower. Truly one of the best books I have read. The main character, Charlie, is a shy unconventional thinker and it’s impossible to not fall in love with him. During his story he references countless number of songs and books — he even makes mix tapes for various occasions like his first time driving alone. I love that because I can relate. If needed I could fit any day, occasion, person with a song. Most of my memories are music-related. For example, every time I hear We Will Rock You by Queen I remember a day I heard that song. It wasn’t the first time I heard the song, just a random day but I remember it so well because I was so happy. My mom, me and my two sisters were on our way home from our aunt’s house when the song came on the radio. I remember all four of us singing aloud and my mom speeding down the road, slightly swerving the car along with the beat of the music — she did this a lot especially to Goo Goo Doll’s song Slide. I loved that about her. Now every time I drive along that one road and up that small hill, I think of that Queen song.
So many of my memories are attached to music. I can picture any moment in my life and just like a movie.. each scene having it’s own song and melody. I have never noticed or realized how much it means to me to have something like this. I do now. And I can’t help but feel grateful. There’s nothing on this earth that I can relate to more so than music. I know it’s sappy, but I don’t just hear it, I can literally feel it. Each note, each melody, I’d like to think I give it life. I give each song it’s own memory.
I don’t know if it’s just me but I like to listen to music while I’m reading. No matter if it’s a book or someone’s blog. The music seems to morph and flow with whatever I am reading. There goes that sneaky chameleon again. Maybe that’s why I decided to add a music player to my blog — to make my random entries seem a little more interesting. :P Speaking of which, there’s a ton of songs that have really been influencing me and encouraging all my life changes, I’ll go ahead and choose a few and add those to the music player. I love sharing music. A perfect gift if you ask me. enjoy.
Bands I think deserve your attention:
http://www.purevolume.com/alaskaandme
http://www.purevolume.com/sigurros
http://www.purevolume.com/explosionsinthesky
http://www.purevolume.com/williamfitzsimmons
